You get born, and you don't really like people? to some extent of sometimes hating them? like science, enjoy your
solitude, enjoy your own alone time?, congrats we're alike and you get this.
You grow up and at some point you realize that you can't really get far having no social skills and avoiding the
crowd, so you start building them soft skills up (not a nice journey).
The sad part is, you know that you can't really lives with anyone (almost impossible, like 99% not doable) because
no matter how much you "love" anyone, you'll get bored of them and they need to live and give you back your alone
time for a week minimum. And my friend, that's not how any relationship works.
Ok it's clear now you're not getting into anything, but this doesn't stop the fucking fact that you'll
STILL end up having feelings for a girl and limerence fucking kills you.
I'm talking making you really...upset... for months, not even weeks, you KNOW this is just
limerence and temporary, it will pass. But fuck it it's brutal, and you almost wanna act on it and get into
that relationship that you know 99% isn't going to workout.
So far I have not been successful in dealing with it, writing this is partly for my own fun putting shit on a
website that no one knows about and possibly reads, and the other part is maybe something new about this will pop up
in my mind that will help me get out of this state of limerence while I'm thinking about my thoughts, trying to
articulate and explain them.
The unfortunate part is, this feeling or (I'm going to refrain away from saying "depression" since I don't think I
have ever suffered from it or diagnosed officially) sad state gets so deep, it makes you think about other things in
your life that is: