Do you ever get that feeling where it's not sad, it's not happy, it just is. That empty, void "state" where it's
just.... nothing. You don't feel particularly sad, it's just numb. And you wanna stay there maybe forever? I did
some research (first google pages) once and I think they call it "anhedonia" or something like that.
It's when you don't feel pleasure no more especially in things you used to ennjoy. I'm not sure If I've grown and
things have just changed OR it's really anhedonia hitting me. Or maybe it's disassociation, some kind of coping
mechanism to run away from all stress (even though I never think I got "too much too handle") that does't mean I
don't got too much to handle.
Cool, this sounds like an interesting discussion I'm willing to have with a psychologist, but there's a problem that
needs to be solved first: ,Find a good psychologist.
Can you even decide who is a good psychologist if you're not one yourself? can the mere thought of "them being a
spychologist and hence better than me not being a psychologist" be good enough to go ahead with it? Or you need to
find someone "good enough" and what does that even mean? what's the objective measure? Yeah... you get it.